I really wish you didn’t make it impossible to talk. I’m not okay with not being able to have a conversation with you, or have you in my life at all. The past is in the past but you can’t seem to leave it there. You still think that you know how it is and you really don’t. To be able to state facts you need to know the truth but because you think you already know the facts you are blinded. I’m not that 16 year old girl anymore. I’m definitely not perfect. I might not be everything you want me to be. I might not be what you think I should be or how you imagined me to be, I might not be anything.. but I’m me, and I’m trying to be a good person, a better person. I see that I’ve grown I just wish you weren’t so stuck so you could see it.
I apologize, and I have over and over. I’m sorry I was a bad partner at times, I’m sorry I did things that are unforgivable. I take responsibility for it, I’m sorry it happened but all I can do is make sure it doesn’t happen again, or at least improve and I know I have. I wish you would take responsibility for your part in our downfall. I wasn’t the only one who made mistakes. Now I like who I am… I wish you did too but I’m not going to waste my time trying to make you anymore. You have really proven your lack of interest and that I hold NO importance anymore … I wish I could call you a friend, or even just be able to talk to you without you being so defensive, and without it starting issues between us. You were the person I was closest to. Noone knew me like you. So much time spent together.. and Now we’re strangers. It’s weird. I’m not really okay with it. But, If that’s how it’s going to be though, it’s not worth the fight.